This will be my last post on this blog as it’s been abused by some trolls. I plan on taking it down next month and going private.
It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything on our NM experiences. Just to update, we moved into the house on January 20th of this year. Since then, we’ve been moving in and furnishing the house trying to make it feel lived in. There’s so much going on that it’s hard to stay focused. Taxes are coming due, I’m retiring next week and we’re trying to sort out how to live in retirement.
From a health perspective, I finally found a primary care physician who’s good and competent. He’s given me some information to ask my other doctors, and some changes in my medications, so I’ll see how things shake out. More on that after this goes private.
I’ve decided to get back into journaling. Something satisfying about writing down your thoughts on paper with a pen. And it helps me practice handwriting, which is getting worse as I get older. I’m working on hand strengthening as I’ve done nothing for a year while living in the RV. I’m going to take all the blogs from this last year and put them into my journal. With retirement looming, I think I’ll have time.
There’s still so much to do here. Painting, finish work and I need to build out the outdoor BBQ area starting with the BBQ cart. I’ve been working on it part-time, so I have the frame built, but now I’m into the cladding and tongue and groove finishing. I’m still not sure how I’m going to finish the top and doors. Originally, I was going to use a Quartz top, but that’s so expensive. I’m considering using copper sheeting for the top and door inserts which should match the inside and post covers. We’ll see where this lands. Money will determine the end result.
I’ve been upgrading the Can-Am a bit. Beefier end-links, better sway bar bushings and adding some NASCAR nets to the windows to keep hands and arms inside in case of a roll-over. I want to get some better tires for the Can-Am, so that will take some time.
It seems like everything is happening just as I’m retiring and losing an income stream. I’m concerned about the cost of getting health care and keeping myself sane. I’m very concerned about being lonely as I have no friends down here and am not working toward making new ones. Hard at my age. We’re part of a church, but those are acquaintances not friends. With everything that needs to be done here, it’ll be hard to take time to participate in other activities that would generate new friends. I’m hoping I’ll figure it out.
The other thing that weighs on me constantly is that my life journey is coming to a close. I’m not sure I’ll ever be ready for that to happen, but it will and I need to accept that it will occur. I have to get out of my head about this and be more present for my wife and family. I think I’m going to try and be in Seattle 3 times a year to be with my grandkids and family as much as I can. I miss them, I miss my parents and brother. There are days when I have to stay busy to keep from wallowing. It’s more apparent with me retiring as that’s a big life change that’s a waypost on my life journey. I need to travel and visit friends and enjoy the time I have left on this beautiful planet. I have to find a way to quell the lonely ache in my chest and my anxiety. I think getting out of the house more will help.
The house came out amazing. It’s beautiful and better than I expected. We had our open house a couple of weeks ago, my mother-in-law put it on, and it was great. Now I need to spend some coin and get the hardscape done, add a carport to the workshop and some landscaping. Of course, we need to fence pasture to allow the goats to run and eat weeds!! Wendy wants a pool, so we’re getting an estimate. If we hadn’t run over the budget by 200k, we’d have gotten this all done. Now it’s time to scrape and find a way to make the final stuff happen without debt. We’ll see how things go.
I’d love to do some consulting work, but I don’t believe that will happen and I’m not sure I want it to happen. I feel like my last 7 years at Itron was wasted and I’m positive my career stopped because of the lawsuit. The last two years has been a complete waste of my skills doing marketing. I was put into a dead-end job to finish my time at Itron and retire. So, I was paid to sit on my ass. What a waste for both Itron and me. And at my age, ageism is a real obstacle, so consulting is the only option left if I want to do meaningful work. It all comes to and end on 4/2, so lamenting isn’t going to help make things better. I need some time to sort out my head and find a course. My old boss was right – don’t retire until you know what you want to do with your life after work.
Well, this is the last post. I’ll leave it up for a while, but I intend to take down the blog next month. It’s been therapeutic and useful.
Take care and enjoy every moment of your life because you can’t get them back.











